Masquerade

A voice thats thick with unshed tears
A heart thats heavy and low
A brief shining moment in the dark
A desire to go with the flow

A head that tells me to stop and think
A heart thats easy to break
A desire divided, wants many things
with destruction in its wake

A light thats bright and steady ahead
A constant there for me
A heart thats lifting with belief
This is how things need to be

If you look into the future
Can you tell me what you see
Is it full of sun and laughter
is it happy for you and me?

When I look into the future
The past just fades away
No more lonely tears and emptyness
Its colourful not grey

It may take time to get there
I know it may be tough
But believe me I am willing
To take the smooth stuff with the rough

I crawled out of the darkness and into the light
and standing right there was you in my sight

Suddenly happy, cheered up and free
I finally felt like I could be me

But then something happened, something was wrong
and I'm falling apart like I did for so long

Hurt and confused, and left in a daze
I need a way clear, to see through this haze

The mist has decended, chilly and cold
But I can't let it get me, I won't shrink and fold

There's something to fight for, something to give
A reason for being, a reason to live

I crawled out of the darkness and into the light
and standing right there, was you in my sight

Round in a circle
My life seems to go
Where it will stop
I really don't know

I live on a sine wave
its all up and down
Sometimes its all smiles
and at others I frown

But when I think of it
and how life could be
Why want a square life
That just isn't me!

A feeling inside me
that I cannot shake
a small secret smile
I feel so awake

people assume
they know the full you
thinking you're weakened
with things you won't do

But I feel the strength
inside of me
And feeling much stronger
than I thought I could be

And I know in the end
that I will survive
and that thought alone
Helps to heal and revive

Then in the darkness
I can see a light
the strenght I have lifts me
I'm winning this fight

Onwards and upwards
I'm flying so high
out of the darkness
in to sundrenched sky

Don't make the mistake of thinking I'm stupid
Don't make the mistake and think I'm not strong
Don't think that because I can act like a sweet one
I can't see the times when I know I'm not wrong

Don't think that I'm so nice I'll never be evil
Don't think that I'm too nice to say what I think
Don't think that I'll never act like a scorned woman
I've learned things the hard way, I won't let me sink

Don't think I am blind and I can't see whats written
Don't think I'm naive and don't know what it means
Don't think I will take it I won't be walked over
I won't be a doormat I'm not here to clean

Beyond the dark
throughout the night
there shines for me
the brightest light

Its shines for me
Its light is strong
its there for me
when things go wrong

And inside me
its strong and true
the light that is
my love for you

Strong and true
steady and clear
those lights do show
no need for fear

People look but don't see what there is thats inside
They don't want to see the part that I hide
But I'm coming apart and I'm starting to grow
And soon I won't care that people don't know
One day they will see how it could have been
If only they'd taken the time and they'd seen
Different and bolder, stronger less shy
But all of it hidden and some don't care why
However for now I'll just smile inside
and know soon enough I'll not need to hide

I loved you completely
I gave all of me
But now its so clear
Its not meant to be

I gave you it all
what I had to give
but now i find out
its my turn to live

I don't miss you at all
not one little bit
I am living my life
and it all seems to fit

Its great to move on
its great to be free
and no I don't miss you
but hope you miss me