Masquerade

Masqueradehttp://masked.blog.co.uk/en-EUhourly82000-01-01T12:00+00:00Masqueradehttp://masked.blog.co.uk/http://data5.blog.de/design/preview/58/24eaf35726a548c0ac4cf65cc4c7b5_160x200.jpgSwimming in the Darkhttp://masked.blog.co.uk/2009/06/09/swimming-in-the-dark-6268149/2009-06-09T10:49:59+02:00 <p>A voice thats thick with unshed tears<br> A heart thats heavy and low<br> A brief shining moment in the dark<br> A desire to go with the flow</p> <p>A head that tells me to stop and think<br> A heart thats easy to break<br> A desire divided, wants many things<br> with destruction in its wake</p> <p>A light thats bright and steady ahead<br> A constant there for me<br> A heart thats lifting with belief<br> This is how things need to be</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://masked.blog.co.uk/2009/06/09/swimming-in-the-dark-6268149/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>A voice thats thick with unshed tears
A heart thats heavy and low
A brief shining moment in the dark
A desire to go with the flow

A head that tells me to stop and think
A heart thats easy to break
A desire divided, wants many things
with destruction in its wake

A light thats bright and steady ahead
A constant there for me
A heart thats lifting with belief
This is how things need to be

]]>Looking to the Futurehttp://masked.blog.co.uk/2008/12/09/looking-to-the-future-5188878/2008-12-09T11:44:15+01:00 <p>If you look into the future<br> Can you tell me what you see<br> Is it full of sun and laughter<br> is it happy for you and me?</p> <p>When <strong>I</strong> look into the future<br> The past just fades away<br> No more lonely tears and emptyness<br> Its colourful not grey</p> <p>It may take time to get there<br> I know it may be tough<br> But believe me I am willing<br> To take the smooth stuff with the rough <img src="/img/smilies/icon_wink.gif" alt=";)" class="middle" border="0"> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://masked.blog.co.uk/2008/12/09/looking-to-the-future-5188878/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>If you look into the future
Can you tell me what you see
Is it full of sun and laughter
is it happy for you and me?

When I look into the future
The past just fades away
No more lonely tears and emptyness
Its colourful not grey

It may take time to get there
I know it may be tough
But believe me I am willing
To take the smooth stuff with the rough

]]>Youhttp://masked.blog.co.uk/2008/11/25/you-5104688/2008-11-25T13:42:33+01:00 <p>I crawled out of the darkness and into the light<br> and standing right there was you in my sight</p> <p>Suddenly happy, cheered up and free<br> I finally felt like I could be me</p> <p>But then something happened, something was wrong<br> and I'm falling apart like I did for so long</p> <p>Hurt and confused, and left in a daze<br> I need a way clear, to see through this haze</p> <p>The mist has decended, chilly and cold<br> But I can't let it get me, I won't shrink and fold</p> <p>There's something to fight for, something to give<br> A reason for being, a reason to live</p> <p>I crawled out of the darkness and into the light<br> and standing right there, was you in my sight </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://masked.blog.co.uk/2008/11/25/you-5104688/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>I crawled out of the darkness and into the light
and standing right there was you in my sight

Suddenly happy, cheered up and free
I finally felt like I could be me

But then something happened, something was wrong
and I'm falling apart like I did for so long

Hurt and confused, and left in a daze
I need a way clear, to see through this haze

The mist has decended, chilly and cold
But I can't let it get me, I won't shrink and fold

There's something to fight for, something to give
A reason for being, a reason to live

I crawled out of the darkness and into the light
and standing right there, was you in my sight

]]>Shapes..http://masked.blog.co.uk/2008/07/24/shapes-4492489/2008-07-24T13:09:42+02:00 <p>Round in a circle<br> My life seems to go<br> Where it will stop<br> I really don't know</p> <p>I live on a sine wave<br> its all up and down<br> Sometimes its all smiles<br> and at others I frown</p> <p>But when I think of it<br> and how life could be<br> Why want a square life<br> That just isn't me!</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://masked.blog.co.uk/2008/07/24/shapes-4492489/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>Round in a circle
My life seems to go
Where it will stop
I really don't know

I live on a sine wave
its all up and down
Sometimes its all smiles
and at others I frown

But when I think of it
and how life could be
Why want a square life
That just isn't me!

]]>Up out of the darkhttp://masked.blog.co.uk/2008/04/21/up-out-of-the-dark-4074412/2008-04-21T15:56:26+02:00 <p>A feeling inside me<br> that I cannot shake<br> a small secret smile<br> I feel so awake</p> <p>people assume<br> they know the full you<br> thinking you're weakened<br> with things you won't do</p> <p>But I feel the strength<br> inside of me<br> And feeling much stronger<br> than I thought I could be</p> <p>And I know in the end<br> that I will survive<br> and that thought alone<br> Helps to heal and revive</p> <p>Then in the darkness<br> I can see a light<br> the strenght I have lifts me<br> I'm winning this fight</p> <p>Onwards and upwards<br> I'm flying so high<br> out of the darkness<br> in to sundrenched sky </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://masked.blog.co.uk/2008/04/21/up-out-of-the-dark-4074412/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>A feeling inside me
that I cannot shake
a small secret smile
I feel so awake

people assume
they know the full you
thinking you're weakened
with things you won't do

But I feel the strength
inside of me
And feeling much stronger
than I thought I could be

And I know in the end
that I will survive
and that thought alone
Helps to heal and revive

Then in the darkness
I can see a light
the strenght I have lifts me
I'm winning this fight

Onwards and upwards
I'm flying so high
out of the darkness
in to sundrenched sky

]]>Warninghttp://masked.blog.co.uk/2008/01/24/warning~3627579/2008-01-24T20:34:13+01:00 <p>Don't make the mistake of thinking I'm stupid<br> Don't make the mistake and think I'm not strong<br> Don't think that because I can act like a sweet one<br> I can't see the times when I know I'm not wrong</p> <p>Don't think that I'm so nice I'll never be evil<br> Don't think that I'm too nice to say what I think<br> Don't think that I'll never act like a scorned woman<br> I've learned things the hard way, I won't let me sink</p> <p>Don't think I am blind and I can't see whats written<br> Don't think I'm naive and don't know what it means<br> Don't think I will take it I won't be walked over<br> I won't be a doormat I'm not here to clean </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://masked.blog.co.uk/2008/01/24/warning~3627579/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>Don't make the mistake of thinking I'm stupid
Don't make the mistake and think I'm not strong
Don't think that because I can act like a sweet one
I can't see the times when I know I'm not wrong

Don't think that I'm so nice I'll never be evil
Don't think that I'm too nice to say what I think
Don't think that I'll never act like a scorned woman
I've learned things the hard way, I won't let me sink

Don't think I am blind and I can't see whats written
Don't think I'm naive and don't know what it means
Don't think I will take it I won't be walked over
I won't be a doormat I'm not here to clean

]]>Beyond the Darkhttp://masked.blog.co.uk/2008/01/19/beyond_the_dark~3601058/2008-01-19T16:31:52+01:00 <p>Beyond the dark<br> throughout the night<br> there shines for me<br> the brightest light</p> <p>Its shines for me<br> Its light is strong<br> its there for me<br> when things go wrong</p> <p>And inside me<br> its strong and true<br> the light that is<br> my love for you</p> <p>Strong and true<br> steady and clear<br> those lights do show<br> no need for fear </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://masked.blog.co.uk/2008/01/19/beyond_the_dark~3601058/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>Beyond the dark
throughout the night
there shines for me
the brightest light

Its shines for me
Its light is strong
its there for me
when things go wrong

And inside me
its strong and true
the light that is
my love for you

Strong and true
steady and clear
those lights do show
no need for fear

]]>Looking but not seeinghttp://masked.blog.co.uk/2008/01/19/looking_but_not_seeing~3601048/2008-01-19T16:28:53+01:00 <p>People look but don't see what there is thats inside<br> They don't want to see the part that I hide<br> But I'm coming apart and I'm starting to grow<br> And soon I won't care that people don't know<br> One day they will see how it could have been<br> If only they'd taken the time and they'd seen<br> Different and bolder, stronger less shy<br> But all of it hidden and some don't care why<br> However for now I'll just smile inside<br> and know soon enough I'll not need to hide </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://masked.blog.co.uk/2008/01/19/looking_but_not_seeing~3601048/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>People look but don't see what there is thats inside
They don't want to see the part that I hide
But I'm coming apart and I'm starting to grow
And soon I won't care that people don't know
One day they will see how it could have been
If only they'd taken the time and they'd seen
Different and bolder, stronger less shy
But all of it hidden and some don't care why
However for now I'll just smile inside
and know soon enough I'll not need to hide

]]>I don't miss youhttp://masked.blog.co.uk/2008/01/05/i_don_t_miss_you~3533985/2008-01-05T22:09:47+01:00 <p>I loved you completely<br> I gave all of me<br> But now its so clear<br> Its not meant to be</p> <p>I gave you it all<br> what I had to give<br> but now i find out<br> its my turn to live</p> <p>I don't miss you at all<br> not one little bit<br> I am living my life<br> and it all seems to fit</p> <p>Its great to move on<br> its great to be free<br> and no I don't miss you<br> but hope you miss me<img src="/img/smilies/icon_wink.gif" alt=";)" class="middle" border="0"></p> <p> <small> <a href="http://masked.blog.co.uk/2008/01/05/i_don_t_miss_you~3533985/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>I loved you completely
I gave all of me
But now its so clear
Its not meant to be

I gave you it all
what I had to give
but now i find out
its my turn to live

I don't miss you at all
not one little bit
I am living my life
and it all seems to fit

Its great to move on
its great to be free
and no I don't miss you
but hope you miss me

]]>Greyhttp://masked.blog.co.uk/2007/11/26/grey~3355014/2007-11-26T16:15:50+01:00 <p>Staring out the window<br> It seems so grey today<br> Looking for an answer<br> About why you went away</p> <p>I feel alone and empty<br> And oh so insecure<br> The cold it shrouds around me<br> My sadness is its lure</p> <p>I want you here beside me<br> It always felt so right<br> Now I miss you dearly<br> Especially at night </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://masked.blog.co.uk/2007/11/26/grey~3355014/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>Staring out the window
It seems so grey today
Looking for an answer
About why you went away

I feel alone and empty
And oh so insecure
The cold it shrouds around me
My sadness is its lure

I want you here beside me
It always felt so right
Now I miss you dearly
Especially at night

]]>Bleedinghttp://masked.blog.co.uk/2007/11/24/bleeding~3344882/2007-11-24T11:53:23+01:00 <p>My scars are all so very small<br> yet each one seeps and bleed<br> A hundred tiny little cuts<br> but they do the dreadful deed</p> <p>Out of each little tiny cut<br> drips some small part of me<br> my life it slowly slips away<br> an essence meant to be</p> <p>Too many cuts spill out the blood<br> too many to stem the flow<br> Too many to be bandaged up<br> too many for this I know</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://masked.blog.co.uk/2007/11/24/bleeding~3344882/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>My scars are all so very small
yet each one seeps and bleed
A hundred tiny little cuts
but they do the dreadful deed

Out of each little tiny cut
drips some small part of me
my life it slowly slips away
an essence meant to be

Too many cuts spill out the blood
too many to stem the flow
Too many to be bandaged up
too many for this I know

]]>Too Manyhttp://masked.blog.co.uk/2007/11/24/too_many~3344879/2007-11-24T11:52:33+01:00 <p>Too many tears have been wasted<br> Too many times I have cried<br> Too many nights spent alone now<br> No matter how hard i have tried</p> <p>The world it keeps spinning and turning<br> Time doesn't stop, not for me,<br> My heart; it just keeps on breaking<br> I just hope against hope to be free</p> <p>What have I done to deserve this,<br> What did I do that was wrong?<br> I just wanted to help and be friendly<br> I was there for you all, all along. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://masked.blog.co.uk/2007/11/24/too_many~3344879/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>Too many tears have been wasted
Too many times I have cried
Too many nights spent alone now
No matter how hard i have tried

The world it keeps spinning and turning
Time doesn't stop, not for me,
My heart; it just keeps on breaking
I just hope against hope to be free

What have I done to deserve this,
What did I do that was wrong?
I just wanted to help and be friendly
I was there for you all, all along.

]]>Because of youhttp://masked.blog.co.uk/2007/11/24/because_of_you~3344871/2007-11-24T11:51:29+01:00 <p>There are times when I hate you but never seriously<br> I get so angry and weepy and don't want to be me.</p> <p>Other times I am fine and can get on with living<br> but wonder if it was worth all that giving.</p> <p>I want to move on but am wondering how,<br> but I know that I can I can feel it right now.</p> <p>There's hope in my heart and I may just forgive,<br> and get on with giving and learning to live.</p> <p>Its not always there but I feel the hope grow,<br> I am learning to bear things and just go with the flow.</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://masked.blog.co.uk/2007/11/24/because_of_you~3344871/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>There are times when I hate you but never seriously
I get so angry and weepy and don't want to be me.

Other times I am fine and can get on with living
but wonder if it was worth all that giving.

I want to move on but am wondering how,
but I know that I can I can feel it right now.

There's hope in my heart and I may just forgive,
and get on with giving and learning to live.

Its not always there but I feel the hope grow,
I am learning to bear things and just go with the flow.

]]>Reincarnationhttp://masked.blog.co.uk/2007/11/24/reincarnation~3344863/2007-11-24T11:49:55+01:00 <p>If re-incarnation existed<br> I'd want to come back as a cat<br> I'd spend all day eating and sleeping<br> no one would care that I'm fat!</p> <p>I'd prowl around out in the garden<br> Chasing the frogs and the mice<br> I'd act like the queen of the jungle<br> but everyone still thinks I'm nice!</p> <p>My humans would feed me and keep me<br> they'd stroke me and care for me well<br> I'd sit on their laps and purr at them<br> and claw their legs lots if I fell<img src="/img/smilies/graylaugh.gif" alt=":))" class="middle" border="0"></p> <p> <small> <a href="http://masked.blog.co.uk/2007/11/24/reincarnation~3344863/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>If re-incarnation existed
I'd want to come back as a cat
I'd spend all day eating and sleeping
no one would care that I'm fat!

I'd prowl around out in the garden
Chasing the frogs and the mice
I'd act like the queen of the jungle
but everyone still thinks I'm nice!

My humans would feed me and keep me
they'd stroke me and care for me well
I'd sit on their laps and purr at them
and claw their legs lots if I fell :))

]]>Masked....http://masked.blog.co.uk/2007/11/22/masked~3336124/2007-11-22T16:08:05+01:00 <p>I exist with a mask in place<br> that hides away my truthful face<br> I want to show the me inside<br> for there's nothing I need to hide</p> <p><small>that was going to be in the blog header but I can't figure out how to keep it in its format...for now I think I'll just have it as a sticky post</small> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://masked.blog.co.uk/2007/11/22/masked~3336124/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>I exist with a mask in place
that hides away my truthful face
I want to show the me inside
for there's nothing I need to hide

that was going to be in the blog header but I can't figure out how to keep it in its format...for now I think I'll just have it as a sticky post

]]>Living....http://masked.blog.co.uk/2007/11/22/living~3335446/2007-11-22T13:29:19+01:00 <p>I think its time to see the sun<br> come out and play and have some fun</p> <p>In the dark its been too long<br> now's the time to right that wrong</p> <p>Too many times I've cried inside<br> and felt I need to curl and hide</p> <p>I want to laugh and run and live<br> and give all that I have to give</p> <p>Its my time, its starting now<br> I only need to figure out how<img src="/img/smilies/icon_wink.gif" alt=";)" class="middle" border="0"></p> <p> <small> <a href="http://masked.blog.co.uk/2007/11/22/living~3335446/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>I think its time to see the sun
come out and play and have some fun

In the dark its been too long
now's the time to right that wrong

Too many times I've cried inside
and felt I need to curl and hide

I want to laugh and run and live
and give all that I have to give

Its my time, its starting now
I only need to figure out how

]]>Masqueradehttp://masked.blog.co.uk/2007/11/12/masquerade~3335513/2007-11-12T13:38:37+01:00 <p>I feel like I'm unable to be<br> Who I want the world to see<br> I yell and scream and stamp inside<br> and thats the me I "need" to hide<br> Yet if I let this demon live<br> I may just get what I want and give<br> But for now a mask sits in place<br> and its that mask the world will face.. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://masked.blog.co.uk/2007/11/12/masquerade~3335513/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>I feel like I'm unable to be
Who I want the world to see
I yell and scream and stamp inside
and thats the me I "need" to hide
Yet if I let this demon live
I may just get what I want and give
But for now a mask sits in place
and its that mask the world will face..

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